undercover eyes

So I have this work study which helps me pay for seminary. I shelve books in the school library. And at the beginning of the job I told myself,

“Ya know, I wonder what it would feel like to do a job for the sake of doing it well, not for the sake of how much praise I’ll get.”

I didn’t think anybody would ever know it if I did a crappy job or a good job shelving these books because there are so many other work study shelvers coming right behind me doing the same things. Plus I’m in work study. I can’t really get fired either way.

But just now one of the part time librarians told me, “I just want to tell you, the head librarian just told me that out of all the other work study folks the shelves look the nicest after you are done.”

Wow. Maybe there is someone watching everything I do. What if it is what we do when we think no one else is looking that will be our judge. I know all that Jesus forgiveness stuff that will keep me from getting “fired.” But will he tell me, well done.

I guess then I’ll have to answer for all the books I probably left out of order because I was too busy making them look straight.

Raw Spoon, 2-1-16


(the header image was inspired by a sloth stranded on a New Zealand highway. http://bit.ly/20p81g1)

2 Responses to undercover eyes

  1. therese7282 says:

    What a lovely post — thank you for sharing.

    What do you think of the following? What if one argued that there were at least three witnesses to any given action, even when no other human is present: yourself in the sense of your own earthbound, ego-conscious point of view, the separate and higher witness of your higher self or spirit, and of course the omniscient eye of God :) If you act out of accordance of your own values or standards, both your higher self and God see this. The resultant guilt your earthly self feels in front of this divine audience could make up the essence of rifts in self-esteem. True integrity means acting in accordance with your own highest values …. I think integrity underscores confidence and of course, spiritual fortitude.

    Ever read The Four Agreements by Miguel Ruiz? One of the four agreements is to “Always do your best.” The agreement notably does not feature a caveat of “only when others are watching.”

    Also, someone out there said “The true test of a man’s character is what he does when no one is watching.” I also seem to remember reading somewhere that the difference between someone noble vs. wealthy is how they behave when not being watched.